The Alpha

So here I go again with an attempt at keeping a blog up and running. I'm not 100% sure what I want this space to be about other than maybe a way for me to look back at my thoughts 5 years from now and laugh uncontrollably. I say that knowing full well that right now the last thing that I want to do is laugh at life because it all seems so overwhelming. If I were 40+ years old I would consider myself as going through a mid-life crisis, but as I am not I'm looking for the words to describe my current state of emotions and circumstances. Needless to say life is a bit crazy and I don't see that changing any time in the near future.

Thought for the moment:
If you've had a so-called "Life Changing" experience and yet you find yourself gravitating more and more back towards the things that you were before said experience what does that say about you? This feeling is more closely related to the realization that you have in fact come down from that "mountain top" experience where you came face to face (figuratively) with the Glory of God. That experience where you knew in that moment what your life was supposed to be about and now you find yourself lost in a sea of guilt, lies, temptations, and distractions. Where did you go wrong? Where did you lose sight of what really mattered most? How do you find your way back to that point where you subconsciously, or consciously (which is perhaps the more sinister), veered off the path laid before your feet? The answer is simply stated and yet so easily put off: ask Him. This is followed closely by: follow Him. All that said I hope that I don't easily get swayed from my petitions.

God Bless